Subjective Dismantling

The creation of this work was spawned from processing the thought of how self-destruction could created serenity. I personally struggle with depression and have learned to embrace the beauty hidden in the dark as well as has many family member who struggle with addiction and tragedy and have learned mal addictive coping measures are a way to blind oneself from the troubles plaguing a mind rather than curing them. Art is a way to safely express one’s demons and remove their ability to weigh on you. It showcases the beauty in distress, rather than masking the issue and harming yourself further. I was inspired to put her removed eye in her mouth by a photograph of a model eating a cherry as kinda a cheeky nod to how the positive sides of modeling and sex are glorified as beauty masking the self destruction often associated with the industry such as eating disorders. The choice to make her naked represents vulnerability, and destroyed proportions are supposed to be semi realistic because this is how I like to represent people it is a strong theme through most of my past and present work. It is also in grey scale like most of my previous works I find it makes a more understated beauty rather than the conventional vibrant mixes of colors also I am more confident with blending chalk pastels in the same hue because it makes technique of shading and making things 3d looking easier. I learned that layering the different values of pastels is the way to go rather the applying the values then trying to blend them. This left the chest area a little streaky compared to the face. Layering is definitely the key for smooth transitions Looking at other modern artist I really resonate with the pieces of Ai Weiwei where he shows a man shattering a vase with a relaxed position i feel like it show case that destruction is the chaos in beauty. His pieces are simplistic but thought provoking and that’s what i strive for i want people to view my work and not feel uncomfortable or sadden but feel these complex emotions and realize the potential for beauty is just as much as positive emotions and therefore instill hope. I Don’t know if my work does this but I know that it’s thought provoking and that is satisfaction enough for me