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I started writing this spoken word poem, because of a break up I had with a long time girlfriend. I was in the hospital and we broke up and I started out the poem upset about feeling helpless to the situation. Then I started feeling abandoned, however, that quickly turned into resentment. Then once I finished the poem I was able to forget and move on.
The final product exists as more of a collage of memories, rather than being something I continue to feel and something I hold onto. After writing this I also figured out that I would rather be writing over any other career choice. The project helped me finally figure out the person I want to be and the job I want to pursue.
I never left you
You never left the mind of mine
Until you left it for Dallas
You were never out of mind
But still never in sight
Sayings held no truth to us
And we only had monthly visits
So I forgot your face
But never your heartbeat
I remember you had a scent about you
And I trapped butterflies in my rib cage
While you glowed a being of Scarlet
But all of that lost in star lit emptiness
All of these memories turn heart to chore
I'm Lazy
And I didn't want to live anymore
So beats drop
Hearts fail
Mails snailed
But I promised you 365 letters
14 years old I stood in CVS for a book of stamps
'Cause there's something more romantic
About a letter
Than a text limited to 100 characters
Loves takes 4
But I have 1000 more to include
I wanted to write to you
That I would travel the billion miles it takes to reach you
Swerve the curves of the road
To intersect with the curves of your body
Teach a love that surpasses a puppy
As if age forces stipulations to emotion depth
Our emotional tolerance
Was not trained to love each other any more than we did
People should know that my trip to the mailbox
Wasn’t about birthday checks or amazon orders
But more for delivery of a message containing more than 140 characters
Forget the candy
I want to interact with you
More than an asthmatic
Wants to fluently interact with air
My air escapes in your being near
People say life is short
If that ends true
Mine will consist of you
We’ll lay together
Us, star, and moon
Pink Floyd in the distance
But the dark side is not present in your presence
I want your presence
Not presents
So I spent Christmas in the hospital
I never left you
You never left the mind of mine
Until you left it for Dallas
You were never out of mind
But still never in sight
Sayings held no truth to us
And we only had monthly visits
So I forgot your face
But never your heartbeat
I remember you had a scent about you
And I trapped butterflies in my rib cage
While you glowed a being of Scarlet
But all of that lost in star lit emptiness
All of these memories turn heart to chore
I'm Lazy
And I didn't want to live anymore
So beats drop
Hearts fail
Mails snailed
You moved to Dallas
So our present is frozen to picture
Future moves in dream
Flows to stream of thought
That’s video
But Dallas burns film
So all that's left is picture present
So I got present over presence
Maybe our love was at age level
Height of our tolerance
But who says that’s low
I was too slow to know what I had
Like Im age 3 and everything belongs to me
I just wanted you
Along with everything else
Now you’re gone
And I want to hate you for that
But I won't bring myself to ruin the memories left of you
And of course the memories stab
Like four year old me running with scissors
Once in awhile I fell
Sure it hurts like hell
But I f---ing bet I don’t do it again
Earth Day
Deadpool
Spanish Story Book
Ser Vs Estar
GAG
Describe your project
I wanted to create a gag manga that was 12 pages. However, I was only able to finish a few pages of it.
What knowledge did you already have about the project before you started?
I had already read and studied manga styles for several years.
What new skill did you want to learn coming into the project?
I wanted to specifically learn about the style of gag manga.
Did you accomplish this goal?
I didn’t accomplish my goal. I wasn’t able to get all 12 pages.
How do you know you accomplished the goal? If you didn’t accomplish the goal, why do you think that is?
I didn’t accomplish my goal, because I redid all the pages I had already done.
What other skill(s) did you learn along the way?
I learned how to do the shading in this style of manga.
What are you most proud of in this project?
I think I was able to make the artwork look very professionally done.
What would you do differently if you had to do the project over again?
I wouldn’t have redone some of my art, so that I could have done more pages.
Gag Manga
Art of Plate
Art of The Plate
Tattoo Art
Race Interview
Abstract
My good friend Kia Holloway, tells about her experiences with dealing with racism during the sixties and how opinions on race have changed. She explains how most people dealt with race when she was a young child and how she would handle these types of situations now. She gives insight on the ideas and thoughts behind racism and how many African American felt and dealt with this discrimination.
Research
Many people were afraid to speak up against discrimination based on race. Scared either to be assaulted or thrown in jail. Many figures such as Martin Luther King Jr had difficulty finding people to stand up against these problems. King found ways to convince people to stand with him. He did so by both making speeches and by going to jail himself to prove that the cause was worth the punishment.
Sources
http://1960sracism.blogspot.com/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Letter_from_Birmingham_Jail
http://www.americanrhetoric.com/speeches/mlkihaveadream.htm
Interview
RS: Hi, I’m gonna start by asking you your date of birth.
KH: My date of birth is November 5, 1959.
RY: Okay, and in our experience what are the major changes in the way people talk about race from the 1960s to now?
KH: Now they talk about race as if it was a fad, um and that its going to change just because someone is talking about it more. Now it is more socially acceptable to speak about the subject of racism and to verbally express out loud to social media or to anybody who will listen.
RS: Okay so back in the sixties for a white person to say the N word it wasn't as big of a deal as it would be now, right?
KH: I would have to say that it was a big deal, as equally a big deal then and now. However, its increased in size and venom.
RS: And have you ever found yourself judging people based on race?
KH: Yes
RS: Could you give an example of a time when you found yourself doing that?
KH: All the time.
RS: All the time, do you think, like when you first meet a person that it happens more often or do you find yourself doing it with people that you know. Like you’re more friend with, that you know about their life and their experiences?
KH: I would have to say that it happens on a more general basis, because I think its different levels to racism even though, or being a racist or using the word. For me, I'll have to say that it's the blatant racism, then there’s stereotypes and then there are tendencies. And so for me its not a racist where I wouldn't talk to somebody or I would treat them negatively because of our small race skin color differences. Mine would be more stereotypes and tendences, because it just happens to be a cultural item or thing.
RS: Difference?
KH: Difference!
RS: Instead of skin differences more of cultural...
KH: Because most stereotypes are actual truths in general. Good or bad.
RS: And I'm sure that you've witnessed someone being treated unfairly based on their race, especially in the sixties.
KH: Yes I have.
RS: And how did you react to that and how would you react to it now?
KH: In the sixties when witnessing the or experience something racist towards me it was that you just keep quiet, keep ur head down, and just accept it for what it is. There’s nothing you could do about it, except keep quiet and make it to the next thing.
RS: And what about now?
KH: Ask me the question again.
RS: How would you react now if you were treated unfairly or if you saw someone being treated unfairly based on their skin color? How would you react now?
KH: If I was being treated that way, based on the type of person I am, I would use a term considered a source, shrug my shoulders, and basically keep it moven.
RS: Uh-huh.
KH: If it affected my children or my money, then I would go about it diplomatically, but completely, as far as speaking up, out, and against it.
RS: And has anybody you've ever been close to ever made you rethink your opinions on race or has actually changed your opinions on race? And what is your current opinion on race, as far as how people are being treated and how you treat people and how people were treated?
KH: Yea, that was like 20 questions. Imma need you to narrow that down.
RS: Okay, has anyone ever changed your opinion on racism?
KH: I can’t say that anyone has changed my opinion on racism, because I've never really had an opinion. My view of racism was minimal, extremely minimal, compared to others. I empathize, I realize the struggle continues, however it’s not as prevalent in my life as to people in my community.
RS: And has race ever stopped you from reaching a goal?
KH: No?
(Audiotape stops recording)