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Ryan Swann Capstone
I started writing this spoken word poem, because of a break up I had with a long time girlfriend. I was in the hospital and we broke up and I started out the poem upset about feeling helpless to the situation. Then I started feeling abandoned, however, that quickly turned into resentment. Then once I finished the poem I was able to forget and move on.
The final product exists as more of a collage of memories, rather than being something I continue to feel and something I hold onto. After writing this I also figured out that I would rather be writing over any other career choice. The project helped me finally figure out the person I want to be and the job I want to pursue.
I never left you
You never left the mind of mine
Until you left it for Dallas
You were never out of mind
But still never in sight
Sayings held no truth to us
And we only had monthly visits
So I forgot your face
But never your heartbeat
I remember you had a scent about you
And I trapped butterflies in my rib cage
While you glowed a being of Scarlet
But all of that lost in star lit emptiness
All of these memories turn heart to chore
I'm Lazy
And I didn't want to live anymore
So beats drop
Hearts fail
Mails snailed
But I promised you 365 letters
14 years old I stood in CVS for a book of stamps
'Cause there's something more romantic
About a letter
Than a text limited to 100 characters
Loves takes 4
But I have 1000 more to include
I wanted to write to you
That I would travel the billion miles it takes to reach you
Swerve the curves of the road
To intersect with the curves of your body
Teach a love that surpasses a puppy
As if age forces stipulations to emotion depth
Our emotional tolerance
Was not trained to love each other any more than we did
People should know that my trip to the mailbox
Wasn’t about birthday checks or amazon orders
But more for delivery of a message containing more than 140 characters
Forget the candy
I want to interact with you
More than an asthmatic
Wants to fluently interact with air
My air escapes in your being near
People say life is short
If that ends true
Mine will consist of you
We’ll lay together
Us, star, and moon
Pink Floyd in the distance
But the dark side is not present in your presence
I want your presence
Not presents
So I spent Christmas in the hospital
I never left you
You never left the mind of mine
Until you left it for Dallas
You were never out of mind
But still never in sight
Sayings held no truth to us
And we only had monthly visits
So I forgot your face
But never your heartbeat
I remember you had a scent about you
And I trapped butterflies in my rib cage
While you glowed a being of Scarlet
But all of that lost in star lit emptiness
All of these memories turn heart to chore
I'm Lazy
And I didn't want to live anymore
So beats drop
Hearts fail
Mails snailed
You moved to Dallas
So our present is frozen to picture
Future moves in dream
Flows to stream of thought
That’s video
But Dallas burns film
So all that's left is picture present
So I got present over presence
Maybe our love was at age level
Height of our tolerance
But who says that’s low
I was too slow to know what I had
Like Im age 3 and everything belongs to me
I just wanted you
Along with everything else
Now you’re gone
And I want to hate you for that
But I won't bring myself to ruin the memories left of you
And of course the memories stab
Like four year old me running with scissors
Once in awhile I fell
Sure it hurts like hell
But I f---ing bet I don’t do it again
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- 2016-17